The past
AgonyI only see black
Who can fill it up with colours?
Who can be my rainbow?
It needs water, it needs sunshine.
The sunshine never goes back to my past.
How long can I last?...
TuskaTuska on niin suuri. Mutta pidän sen sisälläni. Kukaan ei saa tietää. Ei kukaan.Tuska
En tahdo hankaluuksiin. En missään nimessä.
Minun käteni... Ne kertovat monta tarinaa. Minun arpeni... Ne muistuttavat minua ainiaan.
Minun silmäni... Ne ovat peili sieluuni. Miksi et näe tuskaani? Sinun pitäisi. Niin sinä sanoit.
Minun elämäni... Se on ollut pilalla aina. Kaksikymmentäyksi vuotta. Miksi synnyin tähän maailmaan?
Have I ever been free?Freedom is what I'm missing. Have I ever been free? I don't know. Does anyone know?Have I ever been free?
My life has been full of lies. I have been lying to myself. Lying that everything is fine. But inside of me nothing has ever been fine. It took me so long to realize it.
I wish I could have gotten help earlier. I wish someone would have noticed what happened. But I can't change the past. I have to live my life as it is.
Sometimes I can't stand it. I don't want to stand my life. I have to. Unless I kill myself.
I have
AfraidDon't show it to anyone. They will think you are crazy.Afraid
Don't let it out. They don't want to see your pain.
Don't show weakness. They will keep you here forever.
I'm in trouble. In trouble with my feelings.
I can't be honest. I'm too afraid.
I don't want to be here forever. I don't want my life to go backwards.
I'm in a good position in this hospital. They are allowing me to move on.
My head doesn't want to move on. I'm afraid.
I'm going to crash down soon. Then my life will be nothing b
A war in my headBad thoughts... They are taking over my head. Taking over my body.A war in my head
Something has to be done. What would that be?
I know. But it's a secret.
Only my messed up mind knows it. Only I can help myself.
Isn't that so? That's what I have been told.
What to do when I don't want to help myself? When I just want give up, finally give up?
I know it wouldn't be a good thing. But I have lost my hope.
I thought I could make it. But I can't.
I just can't. It's all too much.
I'm cursed. &nb
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Lovely ID pic and personal quote! Better to have a descent sleep than to descently getting paid to decay
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''i'm walking through fiction
to look fo the truth,
buried beneath all the lies ''
The Goo Goo Dolls
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